Monday, April 24, 2006;
3:50 PM
IM IN THE SCHOOL LIBRARY AGAIN!
yay. its 24 minutes after school and i totally rushed down to the library. i was supposed to go bpp but my fwen called and said she didnt feel like going. oh wells. stuck in school using the laggy comp. ((: so, here i am typing my dialy life and i think im gonna read some books later. havent been reading alot since the start of this year. too caught up with stuff i guess. now, BOOKS EVERYWHERE!! yippee. hahaa, just saw my sec 1 guides junior.HAHA so freaking cute lor. like the small little girl that acts as chang jin when she was young in DA CHANG JIN or JEWEL IN THE PALACE. wahahhahaa. she's so darn cute! lols. okay, she just saw me looking at her. whooops. :))
pos first viewing this sunday! i dunno how WEST is gonna do it, but i heard from andy that south pple verysolid. oh noooo, south are like the winners last year for pos. and west was... TOP 4. hahahhaha. anyways, the formation we're gonna do, this amount of committed pple and the dance steps are so... weellll, screwed. DOESNT MATTER! WE WILL PRACTICE!!! GO WEST!! feeling retarted. LOLS.
and i cant believe it, i actually finished 3/4 of my homework today!!!!! so unbelievable. but i do until got headache man. there's
o1. science chap 7
o2. maths graphs
o3. english comprehension
o4. english modified cloze
o5. history revisation
and i finished like nos. 1,2,4 already. whew. first time ever when i actually finished SOMETHING in school. SO PROUD OF MYSELF. [pat on the back]
aaanndd, during assembly just now we were formally announced to the school that we were councillors. omg, so MALU. when we went onstage everyone was like jeering [punch them!!!] and we stand right infront of the ENTIRE FREAKING SCHOOL. so malu lors. everyone looking at us. :P cannot make it man..
okay, english comprehension haven finish, and history too. and i think pple wanna use this comp. OKAY, i'll get out now. more next tyme when im free. HAIS. needaa go study!! EXAMS NEXT WEEK!!!!!
xoxo, k.
Sunday, April 23, 2006;
11:41 AM
this is THE DAY that the LORD has made
i will REJOICE and be GLAD in it ((:
exams are HERE and im studying harder then i did last year. its a big improvement man. i dunno why i wanted to study, i just felt that i wanna get better marks for my exams this time round. guess im sick of all the bad grades and horrible scoldings. hahaa. as you can see in my wishlist, im aiming for B3 and above! yay! if you can see it, you can recieve it ((: so im trusting God to lead me! and thanks to all the chc people that hugged me yesterday in service!! ahahhahaa. yesterday was crying day! everybody was crying cos of things that happened in their lives. all i can say is, thats happening in mine too. so just keep praying and trusting God and know that there are so many people behind you that will help you! YAY ((:
the weeks have been really rocky since that incident happened. but if they want to treat me like dung, its okay. cuz i dun need them. they're not the ones that are gonna follow me to heaven. they're just some POPULAR people that are so negative. like what sister kaixin says: " people who are around negative people will get influenced by them and in turn, become negative people." so anyway, im sick of being their scapegoat. im not really sure what im gonna do without them, but i noe God will help me and show me the right path no matter how far i've gone down the wrong path. THANK YOU!! so no matter comes my way, i will use that stumbling block to be my stepping block. im not gonna cry just cuz someone betrayed me or steal my stuff, its all so yesterday. im gonna smile at them and forgive them even though they hurt me and stuff. i got the real friends right beside me, and God beside me, so i will fear nothing.
pos on thursday was, one of the worst practices. sad but true. its like the rooms are taken up for the talentime auditions and we have no room to dance!! den me and 4 other girls were practicing [yes, THATS how little we were] the dance and was taking a break when JOHN came and told us to dance and let him see how we did. so we gave out a hundred and one, and guess what he said! " you guys need more energy! " oh my gosh, we were TIRED OUT. so anyways, after he did that we practiced AGAIN and good thing by then it was abt 9 so we had to stop. hahaa, my fwen was so darn relieved. so was one of the worst dancers, absolutely NO ENERGY at all, and the whole dance, its a bit screwed. oh well. den i asked geraldine wad john told us and she say that no, our i.c. brother eric said a completely different thing. OH MY GOSHH. so dance didnt turned out very good. BUT IT WAS STILL FUN!!! AND EVEN THOUGH MY BONES ARE LIKE HURTING, I LOVED IT!! :D
oh, and those who have seen my tagboard lately, you should be able to see this/these person/people by the name of "NoName" tagging really funny stuff on the tagboard. oh man, its so hilarious. the devil actually using them to tag rumors on my blog. hhahaa. so funny man. anyway, i know who the person is, but im not telling the person/people off or anything. if the person/people want to do this, im not gonna be angry or whatever. cuz this time im gonna be controlling my anger. btw, notice i used the term " people". cuz i know its a variety of people thats in my class, and are girls. ANYWAYS, im not gonna talk to the person/people that tag on my tagboard anymore cuz its so pointless and im actually giving the person i chance to get in my nerves. as prisca would say, " these things will happen when you have a blog thats published publicly. oh wells. ((: thnks cheryl for tagging too!
basically, theres more that happened during the week but, as i said, this is a public blog that people can see, so if anything you wanna find out, come to me and i'll decide to tell you anots! hahaas.
oh and this is for daphne: PLEASE PLEASE stop screaming my name in the mrt every saturday when we're coming home. and playing the barney and cuppycake song! its so embarrassing!! so many people looking at us like we're some retarted people!! hahhaa. too high liaos.. too high liaos.. HAHAHAA.
yawns. think i go surf the net some more and maybe study history den i'll sleep. HAHAAs
xoxo, k.
Sunday, April 09, 2006;
12:00 PM
OOOOOOOOKAYY.
im totally sorry!! i didnt change my blogskin. I SHALL TO IT TODAY! actually when i wanted to change the template in the library, some teacher came and chased me out. :D oops. the t'cher said that the library was closing and stuff like that so we have to turn off our comps and stuff. HAIIS.
and erm. i have a confession to make. im actually irritating. okay, some people might go, " yeah, FINALLY you noticed." others might be, "NO! how can that be??" actually, i dont know what to say. if im irritating, then fine. do me a huge favour and please tell me what else i suck at. tell me what else im really frustating you about. you know what? i seriously dont really care. because there's someone out there that loves me and appreciate me. i wont go after the worldly things anymore. i wont go to you all anymore. i wont do the things you find so fun when its wrong. its never gonna be ME ME ME anymore. God has opened my eyes, and now, im learning to be less critical of people, learning to make my own decisions and say NO when i have to. no more people pushing me around. no more people telling me what i should do. no more people trampling over me. IM GONNA BE A NEW PERSON. im not gonna fall in that long dark tunnel of no light. not even a flicker of light could found there. i made a commitment to pray, read the WOG, fellowship, and bring souls to God. and i know i have to trust in the Lord to help me. like Job, he lost everything but his wife and 3 friends. even his wife told him to curse God and die! the devil will always use people the closes to us to hurt us. but if we trust in God, we will be able to go thru the valley of darkness. :)) i love you Jesus! ((:
and my first step to doing what is right is : breaking up with ethan. no more of this BGR. i just have to accept the fact that im not ready. if i really wanna do right, i should listen to what God says. an that is leaving the relationship. hey eth.? if you're reading this, erm, i just wanna say that you've been an amazing person in my life and even though we broke up, i wont avoid you or feel wierd around you, cuz now, you are a great brother to me. ((: love you always. (:
AND IM GOING TO CHANGE MY CG! NO MORE GOSSIP ABT PPL! cant have this happening man.
xoxo, k.
Wednesday, April 05, 2006;
4:27 PM
erm. okay. i apologise for not blogging as much as i wanted to.
the thing is, i have way too many things to get done and the deadlines are so freaking soon.
i had to do:
1. investiture programme
2. english expressions script[ in the end they didnt used it]
3. cca projects
4. math project
5. study for science
6. and maths
7. oral practising
8. homework
9. pos dance training
10. get sovenirs for investiture [done]
11. help germin with seating plan
...and alot more. so it really sucks right now. im also experiencing some stuff that really gets me down but im gonna keep going on!
anyways, finding new skin, and you might be seeing it now, unless i dont have the time to finish doing it. im like in school library cause i cant use the stupid computor at home [>.<] and cause i wan to borrow some book. its really good! you should read it. btw, the book is "Shadow Mancer" by G.P. Taylor. heh heh. was reading it through out the whole time i was waiting for my turn to be tested for oral. haha. was irritating hui ming, sarah, hwee siang by reading so loud. then sarah was like shaking my hand and saying "im scared im scared" omg BIG SURPRISE. sarah like toally beat me in the exams and she's feeling nervous?? OMG even i was not feeling THAT nervous. haha. anyways, oral was A BREEZE. it was so easy!! i was totally expecting something more difficult. lalalas.
just saw the other classes english expressions video, and.. well, it was no better than ours. i think ours is gonna suck big time. they should have used my script!! but the main casts and cast manager and director all complained,so whatever. im way too tired to fight back. crap. freezing cold in the library. heh heh, meeting him later for movie! maybe lar. freezing cold frezzing cold!!!!
justin's not updating his blog..maybe he's too busy over in australia? heh i wish. huge change in him man.. he spiked his hair. dots. now his so busy with his new school and whatever, his school fee, his PR approval.. la la guess i should be happy that he actually found a school that accepted him [haha] but i actually MISSED HIM. okay, better not say too much. eth--- might be jealous. lol.
xoxo, k.