haha im gonna strangle and mangle you so bad that you'll be a pulp when im done.
see you on monday for social studies!
(prepare yourself! hoho)
chem practical was so rubbish.
stepped into the class 5 minutes after the prac started cos of that annoying lrt that made me wait for 10mins and made me late!
ah. i practically ran up to the lab.
O: and to think that the practical is for Olevels.
so in the end, the graph was supposed to be a curve or a straight line?
gah whatever, there's still one more SPA prac for me to pull up the grade i guess.
and ahh.
english camp next tuesday.
im only going cos mr wee says it'll benefit me.
(apparently it means that if i go, i can score my A1 for english)
i wonder what will happen if i show up in a class and the teacher doesnt see my name on the list?
haha.
okay homework calls.
gotta go.
see you around! (:
xoxo, k.
Thursday, May 29, 2008;
9:16 PM
besties; me and mag! (:
my mom just went off to Australia a few minutes ago.
starting to kinda miss her, haha!
she wont be around for 2 weeks or so.
but im sure God will provide for her and protect her when she's far far away!
ahh. no more good food for dinners ):
hahaha my dad cooks wierd stuff, like boiled meat in baked potatos and funny stuff O:
maybe i should just eat yong tau foo for the next two weeks.
its healthy food what! haha
i just realised its a long time since i last updated about stuff happening in life. :D
had basketball outing with cell group today!
me and wenkai were wearing matching clothes! haha
i was wearing the uniform and he was wearing red bball shorts +black shirt.
see, we're a match made in heaven! :D HAHA.
eeeyesh. no lah. wenkai will always be a cell group member LEADER (soon!) and a really good drama friend to me. :D
hahaha he'll only be reserved for mag! xD
but she has mooooshu, wilson and so many other guys. -_- hahas
im better. i only think some guys are cute.
thats all :D
oh yeah that reminds me.
my physics teacher! >:(
going around telling this guy (that i commented that he looks cute) that apparently i like him.
!!!! pleeeeeease can.
i dont like the guy, i just think he's cute.
hahahaha. jia lat lah.
how am i supposed to face this guy now! -__-
okay random stuff now.
designed this "bandana printout" thingy for neos camp this june.
comments please? (:
i think its kinda plain and stuff, but mag says its nice :D
haha. cg members! tell me!
click to enlarge (:
okay gotta go.
O level Chemistry Practical exam tmrw O:
need to sleep early.
see you around! (:
xoxo, k.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008;
1:00 PM
You are closer than my very breath.
my physics teacher told me, "you're a person looking for a relationship with someone!"
i looked at him and went, "uh, yeah, i can make more friends!"
he replied, "no, i meant with someone of the opposite gender."
yeah right.
i don't have time for true love right now.
find me again after November.
when the hectic life decision exams are over.
sigh.
xoxo, k.
Monday, May 26, 2008;
5:55 PM
disappointment. anger. frustration. tears.
Rascal Flatts - Stand. it speaks of everything that's happened today.
'nuff said.
Life’s like a novel with the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon with only one way down
Take what you’re given before it’s gone
And start holdin’ on, keep holdin’ on
xoxo, k.
Sunday, May 25, 2008;
6:55 PM
to SARAH CHAN :D
and yes, i purposely put this picture up cos i know you find it stupid :D haha.
so please remember the crazy times we had with lydia and the rest!
anyways. thanks chan for the blog post.
(the post was totally for me okay) haha
i felt like posting this up too so here goes:
thanks chan for always being there.
you crack me up with your obsession with the rubik's cube, you frequent "Interesting..." word when i tell you something really random, punching keeger and pulling the tail, helping me in like EVERY subject (i realise i bug you alot HA), the encouraging text messages when a particular guy threatened to kill me (im exaggerating, he wanted to punch me BUT I THINK IM STRONGER HAHA), commenting that im REALLY a Dumb Blonde and Bimbotic (im not okay), the rubbish jokes we had, explaining patiently the solutions of math questions even though im like REALLY slow, waiting for me and eating RICE AND SOTONG (with curry potatos) everyday, you're slow to anger when im irritating, you dont let me copy your homework, you force me to tidy my table in class xD, we laugh at the other people taking normal chinese, taught me that i should be hardworking and should study, showing me that "what on earth" look when i point out which guy is cute, collecting my stuff when im sick (and not dumping it under the table like some morons -_-) and not laughing when i said i wanted to go to SAJC/ACJC. (some idiots laughed when i said i wanted to go to a JC and that really ticked me off.)
thanks chan because it really meant a lot to me. (:
I KNOW I MEAN A LOT TO YOU TOO!
AND YOU'LL MISS ME TOO!
YAY!
dont worry, i still have half a year to terrorize you!
haha!
(:
xoxo, k.
Thursday, May 22, 2008;
4:09 PM
JEYUN (giraffe), JOSELIN (zebra), KEZIA (lion)
ROAR! AND THE OTHER TWO ANIMALS RUNS AWAY :D
(i am so cool)
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY JEYUN! (:
ni shi yi ge hen hao de peng you!
gah, my pitiful attempts at speaking (typing?) chinese.
still sounds sexy okay. hahaha :D
bunch of polys came down for educational fair today.
completely useless cos im going for JC anyways.
ngee ann's early childhood flyer was so cute. haha
the little kiddies. guess lizzie is having fun hoho.
eh singapore poly offers psychology + drama and you can take an additional diploma for drama!
like, there's this drama course over there. haha
so cool, you learn backstage stuff and emotions stuff and all the cool drama stuffs.
well, they offer mass comm (journalism yay!) too but the competition so damn lot.
well whatever, i want to go AC/SA and be a mugger there.
haha nerd man. i still cant let go of uniforms! :D
guess cos out of the 11 years i've spent studying, i only liked PHPPS and PAP uniform.
eh, the red and black uni sucks lah.
seriously looks like KFC. BLEAH.
more assignments to rush thru again today (whats new man)
but last day of school's tmrw before the hols start! (:
not exactly hols considering how many "extra" classes we have but ah heck lah.
okayokay bye.
xoxo, k.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008;
4:38 PM
how long have i been in this storm?
so overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless forms.
very often, I-PERSONALITY (the DISC test) people faces insecurities from the world.
opinions of those around them matter a lot and self esteem is a must.
sometimes they might have a flippant mouth.
hurting those around them without meaning to.
however, it is these people that are able to outreach more.
to be an evangelist and pull people from the depths of hell and up to heaven.
standing in the front lines of God's army, facing the most criticisms.
and wherever they go, miracles follow.
learnt pretty cool stuff today during physics. :D
magnetism and de-magnetism.
(you can totally relate it to people's character)
so here goes, lemme tell you what i leant today! haha
Iron:
ease of magnetism: easy, a weak magnetic field is enough.
ease of de-magnetism: easy to de-magnetise.
"Iron" people:
- quick to anger, also quick to cool down. (:
- gets attracted VERY readily to loads of people (AKA HOT GUYS). = MAGNETISM.
finds new (cute) guy in a few weeks time, and the old guy is thrown away. = DE-MAGNETISM. O:
omg? hahahahha. so crazy can.
and apparently im an iron person.
and actually, i dont think Mr Darcy from AC is cute anymore.
hahahahahahahah. red and black guy cuter? :3
my physics teacher also said that iron people give their love away easily O:
sorry manx, im not someone that flings my love everywhere hor!
i only want long term :D ahaha.
Steel:
ease of magnetism: not so easy, strong magnetic field required.
ease of de-magnetism: not easy to demagnetise.
"Steel" people:
- very stubborn.
- slow to anger, but when they're REALLY angry, they'll bring out the big guns, tanks, bombs, missiles, nuclear weapons and shoot you with everything they've got. (and they just dont stop there!)
- LOVE ONLY ONE PERSON! like, never ending love like that. hard to get rid off (i guess)
omg can? hahaha.
the things i learn in a single physics period. :D
recently i was clearing my papers and worksheets (for filing day, how frustrating)
and i came across the email lizzie sent to me a few months ago. last year, in fact.
i actually printed out the email and kept a copy cos i thought it was so nice of her.
its was about that guy O:
but ... i really wanna thank elizabeth chin! for being a great friend yeah!
yay and i replied your email alrd lah, go check go check! (:
ROAR. THANKS LIZZIE FOR BEING THERE KAY! NI HEN HAO, WO XI HUAN NI!
my chinese is sexy hah. :D
okay gtg. dang freaking lot of homework to be done and the stupid filing thing to do.
ciao -
xoxo, k.
Monday, May 19, 2008;
10:45 AM
Yesterday's Feelings - The Used
Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind The worries are washed out to sea See the changes, people's faces blurred out Like sunspots or raindrops
Now all those feelings, Those yesterday's feelings will all be lost in time But today I’ve wasted away for today is on my mind Left the only worries I had in my hands Away from the light in my eyes Holding tight and try not to hide how i feel Cuz Feelings mean nothing
Now all those feelings, Those yesterday's feelings will all be lost in time But today I’ve wasted away for today is on my mind Left the only worries I had in my hands Away from the light in my eyes Holding tight and try not to hide how i feel Cuz Feelings mean nothing
Yea today is on my mind. Now I can't care to worry Im feeling so lonely Breaking apart all this love in my heart Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind Where feelings mean nothing
Now I can't care to worry I’m feeling so lonely Breaking apart all this love in my heart
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jeyun said all the pictures that were on my past few posts were emo. -_- okay, so i wont post a picture up this time. i'll put up a song :D haha
anyways. got this from cg blog. thought it was really nice; so here goes!
The Treasure by Alice Gray as printed in "More Stories for the Heart"
The cheerful girl with bouncy golden curls was almost five.
Waiting with her mother at the checkout stand, she saw them: a circle of glistening white pearls in a pink foil box. "Oh please, Mommy. Can I have them? Please, mommy, please!" Quickly the mother checked the back of the little foil box and then looked back into the pleading blue eyes of her little girl's upturned face. "A dollar ninety-five. That's almost $2.00 If you really want them, I'll think of some extra chores for you and in no time you can save enough money to buy them for yourself. Your birthday's only a week away and you might get another crisp dollar bill from Grandma."
As soon as Jenny got home, she emptied her penny bank and counted out 17 pennies. After dinner, she did more than her share of chores and she went to the neighbor and asked Mrs. McJames if she could pick dandelions for ten cents. On her birthday, Grandma did give her another new dollar bill and at last she had enough money to buy the necklace. Jenny loved her pearls. They made her feel dressed up and grown up. She wore them everywhere--Sunday school, kindergarten, even to bed. The only time she took them off was when she went swimming or had a bubble bath. Mother said if they got wet, they might turn her neck green.
Jenny had a very loving daddy and every night when she was ready for bed, he would stop whatever he was doing and come upstairs to read her a story. One night when he finished the story, he asked Jenny, "Do you love me?" "Oh yes, Daddy. You know that I love you." "Then give me your pearls." "Oh, Daddy, not my pearls. But you can have Princess--the white horse from my collection. The one with the pink tail. Remember, Daddy? The one you gave me. She's my favorite." "That's okay, Honey. Daddy loves you. Good night." And he brushed her cheek with a kiss. About a week later, after the story time, Jenny's daddy asked again, "Do you love me?" "Daddy, you know I love you." "Then give me your pearls." "Oh Daddy, not my pearls. But you can have my babydoll. The brand new one I got for my birthday. She is so beautiful and you can have the yellow blanket that matches her sleeper." "That's okay. Sleep well. God bless you, little one. Daddy loves you." And as always, he brushed her cheek with a gentle kiss. A few nights later when her daddy came in, Jenny was sitting on her bed with her legs crossed Indian-style. As he came close, he noticed her chin was trembling and one silent tear rolled down her cheek. "What is it, Jenny? What's the matter?" Jenny didn't say anything but lifted her little hand up to her daddy. And when she opened it, there was her little pearl necklace. With a little quiver, she finally said, "Here, Daddy. It's for you." With tears gathering in his own eyes, Jenny's kind daddy reached out with one hand to take the dime-store necklace, and with the other hand he reached into his pocket and pulled out a blue velvet case with a strand of genuine pearls and gave them to Jenny.
He had had them all the time. He was just waiting for her to give up the dime-store stuff so he could give her genuine treasure.
So like our heavenly Father.
What are you hanging on to?
xoxo, k.
Sunday, May 18, 2008;
9:28 PM
the wall's closing in.
i feel like mag :D haha
taking all the photos from photobuket and then posting it up here.
hah. but its nice! yay.
sermon was great, it really made me feel on fire once again.
and pst kong was so excited can :D
more excited than i ever saw him.
hoho he was so cool okay. christian audiger jacket! O:
prayer rocks seriously.
i think im gonna look through my notes again and commit them to memory.
wheee. (: im gonna be a prayer warrior!
for growth, for friends, and for the cell group. (:
anyways. stuffs been happening this week.
wasnt too great, felt really disappointed in people.
but then again, how many times have i disappointed people?
man, i seriously pray i wouldnt do something stupid.
like yelling and being pissed at a particular person.
self-control, self-control.
roar.
but ... love never gives up.
i will continue to love those who have hurt me.
or those that i've hurt unintentionally.
forget about yesterday's feelings.
cos God will take them away. definately.
worries washed away.
burdens lifted up.
raindrops stops.
the sun comes out.
a genuine smile without the mask on.
true, unconditional love never ever fails ...
xoxo, k.
Friday, May 16, 2008;
1:55 PM
alone.
sometimes i wonder how much those that were once closest to you have changed.
many months have passed.
i've seen people come and go in my life.
in this journey of happiness, sadness, anger, comfort ...
people just come and go.
few stay like mag or sarah for example.
many went and were lost in the world.
how many times have i seen the one that was once the closest to me gone astray?
definately not just a few times.
in fact, many. leaving me behind.
and then after i get back up on my feet, i left them behind.
met new people, how many would just pass by?
how many would stay?
coming from all walks of life ...
school, church, drama productions, outings.
so many left, yet so many stayed.
was just randomly clicking on people's blogs and i came across one.
one that used to be a really close friend of mine.
didnt plan to actually read the blog but after scanning through it,
i just felt a whole sense of sadness and grief.
when did he start to turn away?
when did he strayed off?
most importantly, why?
there was the usual rant and deep thoughts he was going through.
his thoughts of how life sucked and wasnt worth it.
even as i scanned through the post, vulgarities jumped out.
i was appalled. is this really the person i once thought he was?
maybe not. probably not.
people change. even me.
change for the better or the worst, thats not up to me to decide.
and with a swoosh, i remembered the day he was gone.
taking another with him.
i cried so much that day that they were both gone.
everything is a choice.
a decision everyone must go thru.
will i carry on without Him?
or rather, can i carry on without Him?
what does it feel to not believe?
envy. sometimes people envy.
even me. of course, no words would ever come out.
i wish i can be oh so-and-so.
i wish i can be somebody else.
i wish i can have some special inside of me.
insecurities.
confidence can be lost.
yet, it can be regained again.
many might see confidence as conceitedness.
there is a line to divide that.
positive, and the negative.
just a flicker of the eyes, or looking at a person.
i can see the character.
people are like a book to me.
someone i can read through, someone i can see through.
oh, this isnt arrogance obviously.
im just ... saying it.
not boasting about it. ye gads, never.
but when the time comes,
who will leave you behind and continue on?
who will stay to help you up?
will you be left alone?
running so far away so that it wouldnt hurt?
screaming? shouting?
everything is a choice.
xoxo, k.
Thursday, May 15, 2008;
6:34 PM
way away away from here i'll be.
tired and very cranky these past few days.
i have to change.
i cannot let everything i've worked for down the drain.
friendships. studies. cell group.
bible study. prayer conferences.
i cannot give in to the carnal now.
not now, not ever.
i must pray. one hour, two?
whatever it takes to get it back.
passion. fire. enthusiasm.
i cannot lose it so easily!
what the hell have i been doing with my life?
please, bring it back.
i beg of You. can you not see the heart crying out?
the tears coming down fast.
i need to go back. i need to go back to the warmth.
prayer. prayer. prayer.
the carnal is becoming stronger.
i slain you, carnal flesh!
you have no hold upon me.
please. please, let me have by spirit man back.
i cannot live without the Holy Spirit in me.
worthlessness, helplessness.
procrastination, negative thoughts.
no, i dont want to think about them anymore.
i will overcome.
i will overcome.
i will overcome!
you have no hold over me.
i wont be taken down so easily.
there's always a purpose.
ALWAYS a purpose. for everything.
i can overcome.
i will overcome.
no more. no more. no more.
whatever it takes.
i will get it back. i WILL get it back.
persistance. i will press in.
please, let me have it again.
im sorry for the things i've made it
when its all about you
all about you
Jesus...
xoxo, k.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008;
3:22 PM
broken.
i hate this feeling.
i am seriously irritated and angry.
guess this means i shouldnt be blogging now.
xoxo, k.
Sunday, May 11, 2008;
7:39 PM
HAPPY MOM DAY!
i got my mom a card that says "you're my hero!", rose and stuff from the body shop. im such a nice daughter. (: im one of a kind yeah.
xoxo, k.
Thursday, May 08, 2008;
5:44 PM
O: leaders' meeting on tuesday. it was the best. the very very best. i never felt such strong annointing in the room EVER. the hunger, the thirst and the longing to see our zones grow. to see our friends saved. to see them coming for service every single week. to see our cg members growng more. to see our cg members catching the same fire that i have caught. i tell you it was fab. it was really WHOA. i pray and i pray and i pray. i will never turn back, i will never let go, i will never stop praying. i will continue to have the burden of seeing my cg grow and rise up. one hour everyday. one hour praying ever single day. i will do it, for the sake of my friends being saved, for w341 to grow, and for God.
whoa. really really. it just took my breath away.
i will sing your praises
and i will sing forever more
im captivated by your love in me...
xoxo, k.
Monday, May 05, 2008;
7:45 PM
man, im really tired out. its draining to go school and have mock exams. ): and its demoralizing seeing the rest of the school going back after their mid-years. while the O-level people mug back in our classes. but praise God, im having a holiday next monday! oh joy. im gonna spend it studying on a specific subject only. not like my school timetable. -__- everyday different subs, how to study properly! :D but still yay, i have an off day on monday! hoho.
you know what. haha suddenly im missing all those people i've met in expo. you know like, expo services on saturday. i miss expo services on saturdays and going to bedok after that! ): i dont see people like esther, ch, laura, marcus, melvin, andy ang, jeffrey, zheng yuan, xiuzhen, darrion, jacob, edmund, joshua, raymond, lex, agnes, tingting, angeline, kahkeong, terry, jo-ann, brandon, val, gen, olly, jade, matthew, isaac, and so many other peopleeee. and lizzeh and caleb! ): but sometimes even after transferring to jurong, i've also met lots more other poeple! like daniel, veroy, bryan, terrence, june, wendy, bowen, sherry, wenkaaaaaaai! :D, wei ming, robson, and other poeple! hahaha. the list is so short compared to the one in expo -_- (nah, it just means more opportunities to know more people and then they'll wave hi to me! :D) anyways. double service this week, i want to see both expo's and JW's mothers' day drama! wheeeeeeeee.
hai. wanted to blog more about pst tan's sermon on sunday. pray until something happens! ITS FAB I TELL YOU. okay. shall leave it to another day then :D yosh, time to finish up those assignments! :D see ya
xoxo, k.
Sunday, May 04, 2008;
7:09 PM
its so hot out, i tell you im melting. >(
i hate the heat, the terrible. showering multiple times in the day doesnt help.
okay, it does, but only for like half an hour?
IS THIS GLOBAL WARMING!!?
dang, and to think that a few months ago singapore actually hit an "all-time low" for the coldest weather. oh please, complaining that its cold, and complaining now that its hot.
i dont mind the cold weather.
seriously, it beats the FREAKING HOT SUN.
this seriously isnt my imagination.
PLEASE! RAIN! NOW!
gotta run, report on the dangers of the destruction of the environment and global warming and what can be done to increase Singaporeans' awareness of this due tmrw. (or on tuesday?)
DO YOU SEE THE IRONY? ye gads.
good lord, i wonder if mr wee is joking ):
kay, ciao.
xoxo, k.
Friday, May 02, 2008;
8:49 PM
a sight you dont see everyday: BARNEY READING THE STRAITS TIMES.
spastic yes? (: i still think barney is evil.
i actually felt i did something productive today. haha
studied like 4 hours of chemistry.
was trying to understand the chapter on Metals, which surprisingly is easy.
i totally flunked that chap last year cos i didnt like the the teacher who taught me.
no, its wasnt mr ang. it was some NIE teacher. >(
didnt like her at all.
anyways. Metals kick ass man.
its so easy. metal + steam -> metal oxide + hydrogen
so now all thats left to understand is organic chem, ammonia and redox reactions.
man, i seriously hope that june has enough days for me to revise.
:D prelims in july! finally, i thought they'll never come.
the sooner its over, the sooner i'll do the dreaded Os.
and get it over and done with! i need my holiday.
:D
and its wierd.
okay, so you know i listen to the songs in my cell phone every morning on the way to school.
(well, okay if you didnt know, now you know. :D)
and everytime i come across the song Far Away by Nickelback, i'll always think back to the Pride and Prejudice play. Its kinda nice. the song that is. :D
well, the play is nice too.
and i think i ranted enough on it on another post. (especially the guy) haha
the song is fab, even though its an old song (:
listen to the lyrics, its meaningful.
okay its meaningful if you're a guy trying to chase after a girl using this song.
i never knew you can dance to this song!
ultra fab.
okay imeem sucks cos i cant get the song up here. fine, i shall post the lyrics up. (: go google the song. :D
Far Away - Nickelback
This time, This place Misused, Mistakes Too long, Too late Who was I to make you wait Just one chance Just one breath Just in case there’s just one left ‘Cause you know, you know, you know
That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you’ll be with me and you’ll never go Stop breathing if I don’t see you anymore
One my knees, I’ll ask Last chance for one last dance ‘Cause with you, I’d withstand All of hell to hold your hand I’d give it all I’d give for us Give anything but I won’t give up ‘Cause you know, you know, you know
That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you’ll be with me and you’ll never go Stop breathing if I don’t see you anymore
So far away Been far away for far too long So far away Been far away for far too long But you know, you know, you know
I wanted I wanted you to stay ‘Cause I needed I need to hear you say That I love you I have loved you all along And I forgive you For being away for far too long So keep breathing ‘Cause I’m not leaving Hold on to me and never let me go
i think if a guy ever sings this song to a girl (with the full band of course) it'll be uber cool. haha :D
okay, off to study social studies for the evil cat. :D see you around.
xoxo, k.
Thursday, May 01, 2008;
10:46 PM
you know what? im kinda glad my MYE was over a MONTH ago :D although the results sucks. but! i have more time to get ready for prelims.
PRELIMS, HERE I COME!
oh, and happy labour day. its such a joke, no labour today? please, studying is such a tiring job. :D
xoxo, k.
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