Sunday, April 09, 2006;
12:00 PM
OOOOOOOOKAYY.
im totally sorry!! i didnt change my blogskin. I SHALL TO IT TODAY! actually when i wanted to change the template in the library, some teacher came and chased me out. :D oops. the t'cher said that the library was closing and stuff like that so we have to turn off our comps and stuff. HAIIS.
and erm. i have a confession to make. im actually irritating. okay, some people might go, " yeah, FINALLY you noticed." others might be, "NO! how can that be??" actually, i dont know what to say. if im irritating, then fine. do me a huge favour and please tell me what else i suck at. tell me what else im really frustating you about. you know what? i seriously dont really care. because there's someone out there that loves me and appreciate me. i wont go after the worldly things anymore. i wont go to you all anymore. i wont do the things you find so fun when its wrong. its never gonna be ME ME ME anymore. God has opened my eyes, and now, im learning to be less critical of people, learning to make my own decisions and say NO when i have to. no more people pushing me around. no more people telling me what i should do. no more people trampling over me. IM GONNA BE A NEW PERSON. im not gonna fall in that long dark tunnel of no light. not even a flicker of light could found there. i made a commitment to pray, read the WOG, fellowship, and bring souls to God. and i know i have to trust in the Lord to help me. like Job, he lost everything but his wife and 3 friends. even his wife told him to curse God and die! the devil will always use people the closes to us to hurt us. but if we trust in God, we will be able to go thru the valley of darkness. :)) i love you Jesus! ((:
and my first step to doing what is right is : breaking up with ethan. no more of this BGR. i just have to accept the fact that im not ready. if i really wanna do right, i should listen to what God says. an that is leaving the relationship. hey eth.? if you're reading this, erm, i just wanna say that you've been an amazing person in my life and even though we broke up, i wont avoid you or feel wierd around you, cuz now, you are a great brother to me. ((: love you always. (:
AND IM GOING TO CHANGE MY CG! NO MORE GOSSIP ABT PPL! cant have this happening man.
xoxo, k.
