Thursday, May 24, 2007;
1:04 PM
Cant you just look at my perspective instead of screaming at me every few seconds?big sister, im sorry to say: there are many things i could have shot back at you as you yelled at me this morning. but i choose not to. the choice for me to go overseas, its not for you to decide. please, i beg of you, do not take your anger out on me.
mom, i have to say: i know you are feeling depressed and down. yes, i will try to understand wht you are going through. i will try and understand how you are feeling. all i can ask is, please leave me alone for this few days. i have no idea on how to react to these news. i do not know if i should cry, or if i should be calm. i wanna remind you again, im just 15 years old.
i feel messed up inside. i dont know why, but i'll just cry in the wierdest times. i dont want to start thinking that i have no purpose in my life, that i should throw away the passion i have for POS, for school, for my competitiond, for everything. i dont wanna think that way.
i decided to not go to school today.
i really feel messed up inside. at this rate, i dont know if i can carry through.
When the music fadesAll is stripped away...
xoxo, k.
