Monday, August 27, 2007;
9:37 AM
i need to get this out of my system.
i do
not care if i am kicked out of the friendship list or anything of the sort.
i do
not care you have said things you shouldnt have.
i do
not care if i am not the friend you thought i was.
think again then, obviously you didnt know me well enough.
well. of course you wouldnt know me as well, i see you hopping to different people.
if drama meant so much to you, then
show it.
lateness? oversleeping? its just excuses.
if you loved drama as much as you say you do, then make it a point to be there early.
make it a point to reach there prepared and excited.
and another thing, get your priorities right.
its not just about drama only.
its about your spiritual life.
how do you expect to impact someone through your dramas if spiritually, you're not strong?
it'll be pointless if you go up the stage, confident and ready, and then not impact anyone because the annointing is not there.
its always God first, then service or cell group or whatever you wanna put after that.
not DRAMA, THEN GOD.
please, get your life right again. its way messed up.
do not tell me what i should be doing. you do not have the right to.
why? because you're going through the exact same thing i am.
and you're not doing anything to change it, so who are you to tell me do change myself?
get yourself right, first. then come back and correct me.
as what pst kong said this sunday during svc, "get yourself right before you correct others. if not, you do not have the right to tell them to change."
doesnt sound familiar? go watch the sermon on the chc website.
so tell me more about the guy you're going out with.
there are so many other people that want that oppotunity you're taking for granted.
me, for example.
you do not know how much i wanted to get through so bad.
i was so disappointed.
remember what you said?
"i will gladly give up my place for you." will you really? or are you just saying that to comfort me?
cos it was like a knife piercing into me.
if you dont want that opportunity,
i want it.
i will not let anymore opportunities pass me by.
pst kong also said that this was a time of weeping for some.
i finally knew what he meant.
outside, my sister and dad is raging a verbal war.
my sister's pining the blame on me.
it
hurts. it hurts alot.
especially those words.
are you happy now! are you happy that you created all of this!God, you know its not my fault.
you know i didnt mean for anything for that to happen.
all that matters is that you know everything right?
everythings that hurting me. everything that im going through.
you're watching me with that big, flat, multi-digital screen of yours right?
everything i do.
you're seeing what im typing now right?
you know how much im crying right now right?
I want to be like Job. to him you were full of praises.
even when the devil attacked him. he prevailed.
and you said, "well done, my good and faithful servant."
i want to be like him. even when i go out of the room right now, even if my sister hates me,
i can look upon you to love me right?i have that assurance that you're not leaving me right?
thank you, Oh Lord.& i, surrender all to you.
Labels: its okay, out, weeping
xoxo, k.
