Thursday, October 11, 2007;
5:52 AM
i feel so much like crying now.
why is it that people break their promises in a split second and pretended that nothing was wrong? what pierces in deeply is that was the person who was close to you, one that you have trust in. with all that ridiculous criteria, how can ANYONE do it? if you loved me so much you wouldnt go back on the things you said. i listened to you, and you turned and walked away. arent you suppose to lead an example? yet you condemn me when i do something wrong, even when you have done it yourself. what am i in your eyes? even though i know that theres like 1% of a chance you are reading this, but take the own plank out of your eyes first before you rebuke me about the speck in my eye. sometimes you wonder why big sister hates you, and you always felt that it was her fault. you're wrong, sometimes it doesnt hurt to admit your mistakes. and say that one word: sorry.i think everyone of us has a little secret, maybe something that we do not want to be known to others or something we're ashamed of.
sometimes im not as cheerful and self-confident as liz thinks. i, too, go through stuff in life that test my faith and my ability to handle things. let me tell you, its not really a pretty thing. my self-confidence gets crushed and my esteem drops. sometimes i feel so poorly about myself that i just want to yell and rant at someone so that they'll hate me. and then i remember how God has changed my life and took me out of situations i thought i couldnt get out off. and i'll start crying, knowing that at least, somewhere out there there's someone who loves me
the way i am. i dont have to change the way of how i look, so change the way i speak because if God has created me like this then I DONT HAVE TO WORRY! even if the world turns its back on me, so long God doesnt, im more than happy. like how
Psalm 23:4 says, "Yea, though i walk through the valley of death, I fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me."
i just feel that, what God has bought me through has made me a stronger, cheerful-ler, confident kezia. "Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things.' maybe YOU; the person reading this post, might be going through something that tests what you
really think about yourself. just rest in the thought that He is watching over you, and if you put your faith in Him, all answers will be given to you. we dont have to question what God has made or given to us. we are His children! Isnt it enough proof that He loves us so much by sending His Son to the cross? If Jesus didnt question God, what more us? (:
it doesnt matter if we're fat or thin, geeky or cool, tall or short, stylish or not. everyone of us has flaws, but God still loves us right? if people doesnt like us because of our flaws, then they're not worth to be our friends. thats why real friends overlooks our flaws and know that we are a much better person with all out different positive aspects we have. if this was the way God has created us, then there is something in store for us that God has planned :)
so dont worry, God (and the fab me!) LOVES YOU! :D
of course, i will always love you no matter who you are. HOHO. i want to love people with the unconditional love God has always given to me!
(and i love lizzeh's cg members too! ;D i think they're cool. especially the fifteen-yearold person. HOHOHOHOHOH!)hope this has helped, liz (:
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xoxo, k.
