Sunday, June 29, 2008;
5:36 PM
walking down endless stairs.Wenkai's Parables: The Parable of the Girl who likes The Guy.
(wenkai) you know the chess board right? it has black and white squares. So what is the pattern called?
(people) checkered?
(wenkai) very good. now, think about it.
how is it related to the parable? :D GO AND GUESS. haha its so lame.
went blog hopping and came across this guy's blog. i've known him probably last year or so, but we kinda didnt keep in contact and i dont even know where he is right now. -_- all i know is that he's 17. haha! okay so anw. went to this guy's blog, and he's one of those people that can really express his thoughts and all through words. so basically, he's someone i admire. actually, i really look up to those that can write well with good english and use different words to bring out the full flavour of the language. it is such a nice change from all the somewhat entertaining blog posts describing their life stories with reasonable use of english. and i dont mean all those myiE name iShhx sh0 kAwaiixx twit talk. seriously, half of the time i wouldnt know what they're talking about, or i'll close the whole window. so back to my friend's blog. this guy doesnt even have to try so hard to write a sophisticated blog or some 5 syllable word (that doesnt even freaking fit in the sentence) like some people. it just comes out naturally you know? i dont understand why some has to use ridiculously profound words to attract people. well, kudos to my friend. i'll be regularly dropping by his blog to read, although his last post was DECEMBER 2007.
i bet he doesnt even know i blogged about his blog. haha he's the winner of Emerge Spelling Bee 2007 Upper Sec Category. bet some of you will know him :D
cant believe that we dont have Emerge this year! it was the last year i could join for the Upper Sec Categ. before i turn 17! so annoying. guess i can only face brandon next year. haha! and i have proof that my ego isnt the biggest, brandon's ego is. and hopefully he doesnt come across my blog and sees this. he'll totally kick my ass. hoho
this is really random. Avril Lavigne's I'm With You is currently playing on my iTunes and i remembered that there was a time i was listening to this on the mp3 (it was during sec 2) while standing under the pouring rain. and i was crying. lots happened when i was 14, things just started cropping up and went under lots of pressure and obstacles. i think the previous clique would know about it. i have never felt so alone or dejected, so ostracized, so down and out before in my entire life. i faced the one thing i feared the most - loneliness. i guess after a few years, the scars are still there. im still fearful of being alone. not alone at night or alone at home or stuff like that, but real loneliness of being pushed away by people whom you cared the most and whom you have thought were your whole world. but well. through that incident God has really pulled through and taken me out of the valley and showed me that its okay to have the whole world turn their backs on me cos i have Him. i guess... maybe thats the reason why im not very open to Munchkin even up to today. we were in the same clique, they turned away from me, she followed them, but the only thing that separates her from them was that she apologised. wholeheartedly and sincerely. but i dont really blame the rest, i know inside them they're nice people. (: not really as close to Munchkin as i am with Mag... probably cos of being afraid that one day the whole thing might go through a replay. but, i know she isnt like that. which makes me think that im being too paranoid over Munchkin. she'll be a life-long friend to me la, thats certain. doesnt matter what the past was. i dont even know why im typing this or even reminiscing the past, maybe the smell of rain brings it all back to the day i stood under the storm.
i always thought that if you could taste hurt, it would be bitter.
and there's the smell of rain now cos its gonna rain soon. :D
so Avril has been playing for the 20th time and i have an unbelieveble urge to cry now. no idea why.
some people's gonna laugh at that last sentence but... i dont know. i just feel a bit out of the body today.
sigh.
xoxo, k.
walking down endless stairs.