Saturday, November 15, 2008;
9:01 PM
Today's BBQ was fab, I ate and ate and ate! HAHAHA. and mag taught me a new way to wrap presents! really nice. :) I hope the cg members liked their bday pressies! Rachel really talked lots about our cg like humbling ourselves. So when people go like "Kezia I love you!", I won't be like "I know I know I know" but I'll be gracious and just say Thanks. HAHA! I guess I learnt thru the whole bbq experience that be it planning for outings or accounting to others, you gotta be sharp and follow thru everything thru the end. It isn't just asking others to bring food, but double checking if everything is there and everyone done their jobs. :) There was many stuff that wasn't brought (lighter, butter etcetc) but I feel that it isn't the members fault that they didn't bring it, but rather my fault that I didn't check thoroughly enough. So... I shall continue to learn and to grow! I don't have to be afraid or resent being discipled by my leaders, but I shall take it in my stride and continue to press on in being a leader to others!
I totally missed going out with mag and the others to buy food yesterday ): But... my back was killing me like crazy. Could barely move at all! Didn't realise that ladylene couldn't make it as well, I guess she was tired from her Prize Giving Ceremony and stuff. I had hoped that the rest would understand... but well. Not going to complain. I was the one at fault, backing out at the last minute, but my back was sprained (I sound like an old woman bleh)! Couldn't even catch HSM3 with ly and the others ): Had to rush a lot of last minute stuff today as well, like cakes and presents for the birthday people, but I'm glad that I've done it with a cheerful spirit :) I even had fun with ladylene and mag! Hahaha
The joy of the Lord is my strength so I'm thankful He had brought me thru today! Plus the back pain lessened after cg's prayer meeting so yay!
I always had the knack of knowing the moods of people around me (ever since I found out in Secondary Two, was so freaked out can), and I've been wondering ever since then... is it discernment? After all, it is one of the gifts of the Holy Spirit:) I would know if people were angry or friendly, caring or malicious. There are times that I just passed it off as oh maybe I'm sensitive but, sometimes it hurt to know what others are going thru or what others thought. But I've decided that I don't wanna get hung up on the little things that annoy me, it doesn't help me in my spiritual walk with God. It destroys me and gives me horrible thoughts. So I guess that I wouldn't really care what others think of me, besides Mag will always ZHI CHI WO. haha!
I'm looking forward for Ladylene's baptism tmr! ((: yay! She's such a funny bubbly girl, and I have the feeling that she'll grow up to be very fervent and passionate for God! First time I met her and she's so quiet can, now she's talking and talking and talking HAHA! But she's a great friend, and I really thank God for her (:
Oh oh oh. I did an extremely impulsive thing last wednesday (after Chemistry paper) HAHAHA. I was so upset over the MCQ paper that I cut off my fringe using the kitchen scissors. Now it looks like bangs but its so totally not bangs can. pfffffft. There's too many people having bangs! I'm so sick of people coming up to me and saying "omg kezia you cut bangs?!" so I decided to re-cut it and make it slanted. I don't care how short its going to be. Bangs are like... not me. So there. And moral of the story, don't do impulsive things.
Okay well, I'm off to watch my anime. heeee :)
xoxo, k.
