Saturday, December 27, 2008;
11:45 AM
"Don't make me a King and crucify me the next day."
Went over to Expo tdy for Sun's special interview service and it was actually good. I learnt quite a few things that I wanna take action in my life :) It was rather refreshing to take a break from the usual sermons and to just sit back and listen to how Sun is doing, as well as to learn certain truths in life.
Something that really really impacted me was the above line in italics. I think it was Pst Kong who mentioned it, and I remembered I was sitting in that blue chair at charlie terrance 1 and the words just shot into my heart. It just speaks so much of what I was going through. I don't want to be someone that is important to another, yet the next day I'm thrown aside 'cause I didn't live up to the person's expectations, or because I had unintentionally hurt them. I realised that I had to do what Sun did: Just don't care. I don't care about the disappointing and upset looks that was given, I don't care if everyone ignored me, I don't care what others think, I don't care about the negatism. I just don't care.
I was absentmindedly thinking of other things while on the train to Expo with the others, not really listening to their conversation. And I really do agree about smth Arabelle mentioned on her blog: 'It's amazing what your mind can do to you, it can create wild imaginations to affect how you feel and how you react to certain circumstances.' You wouldn't believe the amount of negative thoughts I had in that few hours. (I wouldn't want to mention it, it was really bad) I felt so drained, but as I worshipped God during the service, His voice was so clear in the midst of the music and singing. Receive the inner healing and let it go.
With Christ in me, no longer I... I'm going to let go of all my negative thoughts. After all, its not me anymore that lives in me.
MEME DAY TWO:
I actually heard some pretty good news from a certain someone about an another someone (Yes, this is to make you confused about the certain someone and someone and the other someone I'm talking about) and I called Jeyun and laughed like nuts over the phone. Plus yesterday night at 1am in the morning we were busy googling for a certain someone and laughed about everything under the moon. It kinda made my day (or rather NIGHT) 'cause... well, it's a girl thing. Hahahaha
Okay service tmr morning and I gotta wake up early so byeeee~
xoxo, k.
