Monday, December 01, 2008;
10:09 PM
Reflection in my eyes are looking for purposeThey're still looking for life
One week of rest at home after Asia Conference, three days of work at my Dad's office, and now I'm still stuck at home. I feel so suffocated and locked up at home... I wanna go out somewhere (anywhere) ALONE. Sometimes I wish I could just fly up to the clouds and escape from every single person from the entire world. I feel so unfruitful at home, I'm so tired of talking to people and I'm sick of meeting people's demands.
Pst Tan said to hold on when you feel faithless, when you're down in the valley, hold on when you're tired of serving, hold on when you're alone. Holding On... until you get out of the valley. I shudder at the thought of my bones being dry, but what is my reason for holding on? Letting go, giving up. What am I to choose for the next step of my life?
I want to think... Maybe I just need some time alone.
xoxo, k.
