Thursday, January 08, 2009;
8:02 PM
I didn't want to say it, but if I don't it'll probably be all bottled inside and it'll kill me slowly. Here goes:
I hate it when I have to go through so many disappointments due to broken promises. Seriously, don't bother making a promise if you're not going to keep it. You just raise my hopes and expectations and then crush it flat. I feel infuriated, annoyed and most of all, cheated. I trusted, I believed, and I was let down. I actually thought that it wouldn't be worth it to keep my expectations high with others after this incident... that's the only way I won't be disappointed. That was a horrible thought and I know that in life there'll be so many disappointments, it's just how you handle it. There are times I handle it in a fleshly way, and times I won't even bat an eyelid over. Sometimes... just sometimes, I wish disappointments weren't so big. That's all.
Now to get all fear and insecurities away. I need to commit my time back to God.
Okay I'm done ranting. On a lighter note... O level results day next monday 2pm! Hurhur can't wait.
Sentosa outing with (half of) 4E1 was pretty fun I guess. Even though we were there at 1pm and the sun was burning hot, the sand smoldered our feet and most of us ended up sunburnt, it was an enjoyable trip. Poor Ly got scammed AND THEN dunked :) And she just had to drag me into the water together with Haron and the rest after that. Thanks ah. Hahaha played the-person-who-can-stay-underwater-the-longest game, ended up laughing and choking on salty water. It was damn gross. I mean, imagine how many people spit into the sea?! And then Lydia become my horsey (HEE HAW HEE HAW) hahahaha :D Alicia had half of her limbs buried in the sand!
Headed to Vivo for dinner and then it was the straight bus home for me. Was pretty tired out and I totally zonked out in the bus. Alicia said my head didn't move at all and complained that hers keep dropping and hitting her bag -_- And then there was an annoying woman that kept hitting the back of my seat, but I was too exhausted to tell her off. I turned, glared at her with half closed eyes and then faced the front and went back to sleep. Hoho.
I actually slept before 1am yesterday and I'm pretty proud of that! Hahaha :)
Okay I'm off to take a bath, do QT and then it's prayer conference with the cell group. Oh i forgotten to mention. The rest of the pictures taken in sentosa is already up at Facebook so I won't be uploading everything here. There's like 60 pictures -_- I'll probably flood my post. LOL.
Kayyyyyy I hope my aunt's gonna get me the iPod Touch I requested HAHAHA. Hey c'mon, she asked what I wanted for my birthday! xD Hahas okay Byebyeeeeee~
xoxo, k.
