Monday, April 27, 2009;
11:43 PM
I think my Mom knew I didn't feel all good and happy when I came back home so she went to buy sushi for me!! HAHAHA so nice right :)
I think everyone's gonna come flocking to my blog to see what I'm gonna say about what happened in Design Fundamentals this afternoon lol. I'm still thinking if I should :/
Ahhh okay anyway. Design fundamentals today wasn't a total rubbish (although I like to think of it as so), at least I learnt something... two annoying creatures must be put together and created in such a way that nobody freaking knows what it was originally like. Which is total crass to me, but whatever. So I didn't do my 10 panels of Fird properly, I rushed through it in the entire night and slept at 2am, sketched messily and didn't meet the requirements the teacher wanted.
SO WHAT?
I don't get what's the big idea in crying over it or making up excuses like 'oh I had church'. BIG DEAL. I bet everyone else had something else on and yet they still finished... and aced the whole assignment. Sure, it stings pretty hard to have your work called as 'utter rubbish' and 'sloppy' infront of everyone but that's just how DMD Animation is like. At least that's what I tell myself. So I didn't lived up to perfection and fallen short of the bullseye in the dartboard... life goes on. I just gotta move on with it, do better the next time round and prioritize my time.
Okay maybe this is just me being hard and harsh on myself. But I kept telling myself on the way back home in the mrt that crying wouldn't change anything anyway. What do I hope to achieve if I cried - sympathy or comfort from the people around me? I don't want those. I don't need people looking at me with pitied eyes. But don't get me wrong... It's not that I don't appreciate it, I do appreciate those who talked back to the teacher on my behalf, those awesome classmates of mine that stood up for me :) But sometimes its tough to see the look in peoples' eyes.
Besides... it's my fault anyway. For not being creative enough or putting as much effort as the teacher had wanted me to. Sure, I put in effort. If I didn't I wouldn't even bother to skip my lunch to get my research printed at the school bookshop. Or stayed up till 2am even though I'm dead beat and sick. But apparently MY effort wasn't good enough. So too bad then, you learn and you learn well.
So right, I'm not perfect and I was really annoyed and upset and felt like strangling someone just now, but I also do know that it wouldn't change my circumstances so I'll just swallow everything down and not cuss or swear at the teacher :) Life goes on... just move along with it LAH.
Tyvm Mag for listening to my rants on MSN :) Although I was crying half of the time. Hahaha
But I am really much better now, today's incident was just a stepping stone for me to strive to be a more creative and hardworking person! :)
Okay well yes. Now that today's all done and over with, I shall look forward for tmr being a much better day and hopefully my day will be filled with beds of roses, lame jokes and off tune singing! :D Am off for bed, it's been a tiring day so see ya!
xoxo, k.
