Sunday, April 05, 2009;
12:07 AM
I wish I could be somebody else
I wish I can see you in myself
Okay I'm finally blogging about SIDM's orientation :)
DA02! They are all absolutely fab people. I remembered we were all quiet on the first day and didn't really talked to one another (except for the smiles when our eyes connected), but I'm glad that by the end of the 3rd day everyone was joking around :D I can name everyone in my group! HAHAHAHA. Thank God I got voted as A.IC, I wanted to be one after Rachel talked to me about it but totally didn't dare to volunteer la xD With God's strength and wisdom I shall be a really great A.IC that serves others with excellence!
Da02 is really a bunch of really talented people. 3/4 of them took O level Art! And I'm like a Science student in an art-based class -_- My drawings are like total crap compared to theirs... Mine's like primary school art! When we had to do storyboarding in 10 panels on the 2nd day in an hr and a half, I thought mine was pretty cool until I saw Tiffany's and Kai Yang's drawings... then I went like 'SHIT. How am I gonna survive.' ): And then their scrapbooks having absolutely perfect drawings, and mine's like kiddish. Boo hoo.
So during one of the lectures Ms Grace was talking about passion and all that stuff for the course... And it got me thinking if I would really want to spend my 3 yrs in Animation :/ I mean like, I have to draw 24 frames just for a second! It's not like I hate drawing or anything, I just don't particularly love it as much as the rest of the people in DA02. I'm like the okay person... in between like and dislike. If someone asks me to draw I would, if someone asks me to practice I would. Just that I don't know if being
okay is enough passion to get thru the 3 years.
I always thought I'm the JC kid, going to PJC to study and mug for the Art subjects like Lit Hist etc for 2 years :/ Then a bomb hit me on the 12th of Jan and my life came crashing down and the sky fell and all that (HAHA dramatic much) and then another bomb hit me on the 28th of Feb when the JAE results came out. I mean, why can't the course co-ordinators freakin' look at my EL grade instead of the COP!!! And then I ended up in animation which I had NO IDEA what I'm supposed to do in there :/
But well obviously it's too late for regrets blah blah blah and all the other I -should-have-worked-hard shit... I'm just questioning myself now if I can bear to give up writing and Journalism and my languages for the sake of drawing, animating etcetc.
You'll never change your life until
you change something you do daily.
Writing isn't something I can just let go like that... I'm just really praying I'll survive and excel, have at least a GPA above 3 and be A.IC for the next 3 years or smth. I guess I just have to change my mindset of not totally loving drawing to being someone that loves to draw. It all starts in the mind after all. I want to pray daily and seriously cast all the negative thoughts from my mind.
Changing something I do daily... that shall be my mindset :) I'll still continue writing! Won't give up~
Okay well it has been a pretty long post so I shall blog about my day to the Singapore Art Museum another day when I get the pictures from Mag! And prayer meeting tmr! Finally I can make it in the morning :) Yoshhhh Okay nights!
xoxo, k.
