Wednesday, May 27, 2009;
11:35 PM
I think that... the decision of step down, or rather to take a break from DG and COC duties, was one that I thought for a very long time. How could I hope to be someone who leads others when my life is in complete disarray?
I have a very funny feeling inside of me. It feels like it's something that can't really be described with words. You feel like crying because you're uncertain, yet in a way you feel relieved as well. You feel sad but there's a tiny hint of everythings-going-to-be-okay in the centre of it all.
As I wrote to Jo and talked to Rachel on the phone, I really felt that funny feeling.
It's like trusting someone out there even though you feel disappointed in Him 'cause He didn't give you what you wanted. But I guess that's just
it isn't it?
it's walking by faith and not by sight right?
xoxo, k.
